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Bone Scan

 Hari ini harusnya gue ngerjain BAPL Tapi innalillahi capeknya...  Seharian di RS kemaren karena harus bone scan Prosedurnya kita disuruh nunggu buat administrasi Diwawancara dokter Terus disuruh nunggu lagi di ruang khusus Terus disuntik radiasi Terus nunggu lagi 3 jam supaya si radiasi nyerap ke tulang Terus di scan tulangnya.. selama setengah jam kurang lebih Selama di scan buat ngatasin phobia gue sama ruang sempit, gue nutup mata Alhamdulillaah sempet ketiduran.. Mesinnya emang ga semenyeramkan MRI Kalo MRI kan super berisik dan nakutin buat gue, mana kepala dan badan kita masuk lobang.. Kalo ini ngga sih.. tapi ya tetep sempit.. karena dia perlu deket ke badan kita for doing a better scan .. Anyway I really hope hasilnya bagus.. Bismillaah ya Allah... Tanpamu hamba tak bisa apa2....   
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Greatest Friends Ever

  Alhamdulillaah alhamdulillaah Baru kali ini gue bener2 ngerasa disupport sama temen2... Pada nengok ke rumah dari Jakarta , dari Semarang , kantor Bandung mah apalagi.. Like.. wow... kaget sumpah Malah beberapa aku pernah berantem.. tapi mereka tetep nengok gitu Bener2 ya Allah .. alhamdulillah alhamdulillaah  Semoga Allah membalas puluhan kali lipat kebaikan temen2 semua..  BTW tadi dari jam 2 sampe jam 4 gue jerit2 kesakitan.. bener2 kaya kebakar itu dateng lagi.. Itu gue bener2 minta ampun sih.. sama Allah.. tobat banget... Semoga Allah mengabulkan doa hamba ya Allah..  Dan semoga hasil bone scan bagus.. 

Aneh

Kemaren tiba2 tangan kanan super sakit  Lah kenapa yah  Kaya dibakar Literally kaya dibakar Gue sampe jerit2 kesakitan Minum obat ga mempan Di usap minyak gak mempan juga Pake pemanas apalagi tambah perih  Alhamdulilah kepikiran setel murotal Dan berangsur angsur sakit gue ilang Like bener2 berangsur-angsur ilang  Alhamdulilah alhamdulillah ❤️❤️ Allah maha besar  Alhamdulillah ya Allah 

Help me ya Allah..

Sejak kena kanker.. gue sebenernya jadi jauh lebih kuat i never let mysefl shed a single tear kecuali kalo emang lagi bener-bener ga ketahan dan paling cuman sekali dua kali and it's been a year..  gue selalu berpegang pada ayat Allah: Allah tidak akan membebani seseorang di luar kemampuan hamba-Nya I live for that sentence.. I live for that promise that Allah has made.. And I am.. Hanya it will be really nice kalau memang having cancer tapi gak ngerasain sakitnya.. I am in pain everyday.. just.. I wish it will not bother my activity and pray.. Karena kalo udah kesakitan bawaannya cuman pengen tiduran..  Help me ya Allah.. 
 capek  Lelah sakit Tapi bukannya itu semua isi kehidupan ya? And we also can choose to be happy I choose to be happy I ask God to be strong.. Despite all of this uncertainty.. Perhaps life is all about uncertainty I mean.. the only certain thing about life.. is death Let's give it a shot!
Satu orang lagi harus pergi from my unit.. God.. are we in a shinking ship..? Hamba harus apa? Harus kemana? Harus apa? Apa yang bisa hamba lakukan? Bimbing hamba ya Rabb..  Kemana humanity..?

Hanging There Nana..

I'm trying to write every single day Well, not here.. on my diary Online diary Or notes Or microsoft words Or whatever I want to But, I guess it's pretty hard when you just don't find the time Or commitment to do so.. Couple of days back have been hard to deal with Lot's of projects and things to do Dealing with deadlines and people.. Who are... not very supportive.. Of course..  Defending those who are in need.. Obviously.. because I am that.. caring.. I'm super tired all the time And then I would feel useless  Because I really wanna do more.. For my family.. For my office For my friends.. But with this health.. I don't know..  I'm trying.. I know I haven't try my best and that kinda make me angry inside.. I keep on telling myself it's not that easy.. But I also keep being reminded of the Quran verse which said: Allah will not give you burden more than you can endure Hanging there Nana..  Everything's gonna be alright..  About 50 percent people ...